It is just a fact that some days are harder than others. That some days we have to fight to get out bed, fight to get through the day. Some days even feel as though we are walking around with a broken shell that we are barely keeping together. As I write this it feels like that type of day for me. I am riding an emotional rollercoaster, I feel tired and worn, and I feel like crawling into a hole.
I have dealt with this for a long time, but the greatest thing I have learned in addition to recognizing my feelings is that I cannot allow myself to withdraw. It is when I withdraw, when I hold myself back from people that I only find more darkness. There are caveats to this of course. The people I bring this to are people who care, people I can trust. That has been where the church has been a great source of strength for me. It has brought people into my life that have been able to listen to me, to speak life into me, to love me.
It is my hope that you find some people who are this for you as well. If you don't have someone you can reach out to me, firstname.lastname@example.org. Know there they are people who love you and care for you, even if they haven't met you yet.